Enough. Is anything ever enough?
A book I read recently brought to my attention how our culture trains us to believe that we are never enough: We never make enough money. We’re never thin enough, pretty enough, young enough, smart enough. We’ve not traveled to enough places, don’t spend enough time with our family, we don’t exercise enough.
It made me realize how frequently I tell myself (maybe not always in these exact words), “You’re not enough.”
And I’ve believed it. I tell myself that every day, from the moment I wake up (“I didn’t wake up early enough!”) to the moment I go to bed (“I didn’t spend enough time reading today.”)
This falling short of self-set marks is ubiquitous: “I wish I made as much money as Friend A,” and my criticisms, “I should have tried harder to meet that deadline.”
Once this negative self-talk was brought to my attention, I immediately wanted to “fix” it, but the solution was almost as problematic as the problem itself. Yes, it involved another “enough” goal.
But I quickly caught myself.
When “enough” is decided by a culture that changes its definition on a whim, a culture that I often recognize as morally lacking, is that the measure what I should be subscribing to?
It takes finally saying Enough! with “enough.” My answer comes from my core. It comes from a place of longing — to belong, to have purpose, to be loved, to be known.
Those are all legitimate desires, and having spent my childhood in a Christian household, I recognize that Christ is the source and answer to that longing.
I must remind myself of those childhood truths that I still believe today but so easily dismiss in the daily rush of work and family and friends and errands. Namely, I must remember that my desire to be “enough” is a desire to be loved, but not just by anyone.
Only Christ’s love is perfect, and his love alone will satisfy my feelings.
He is enough.
Sara Hogan, one of The Star’s Faith Walkers, can be reached at firstname.lastname@example.org.