No, it doesn’t shock me, but more importantly, it doesn’t shock God! God knows all about you and your rebellion; in fact, he knows you better than you know yourself. The Bible says, “Everything is uncovered and laid bare before the eyes of him to whom we must give account” (Hebrews 4:13).
But here’s the amazing thing: Although God knows all about you and what you’ve done, he still loves you. If he didn’t love you, he never would have sent his son into the world to give his life for you. But he did, and he yearns for you to turn to him for the forgiveness you need so you can go to be with him in heaven forever. The Bible’s words are true: “This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins” (1 John 4:10).
You say you’re not sure you even care, but you do care or you wouldn’t have written me. That’s not the real issue, however. The real issue is that God cares deeply about you and doesn’t want you to continue wasting your life. Nor does he want you to enter eternity without hope.
Why spend another day apart from God? Instead, confess your sins and your need for God’s presence in your life today. Then trust his promise of both forgiveness and new life. You need both — and Christ stands ready to give them to you.